My Journey
A QHHT® session involves talking about your life in depth and even more talking and that isn't always comfortable or familiar. Allow me to break the ice and share my journey and give as condensed and suitable for public consumption version of me I can muster. I am not a fan of having my photo taken and clearly had RBF early on. I did learn it's okay to smile and this delicate flower let the hard candy shell melt away.
Looking back at my life after receiving QHHT® sessions I noticed the view looks a lot different now that my perspective is from a place of very clear understanding. I can review the worst of events through a lens of learning and growth instead of guilt, anger or shame. After seeing and experiencing myself in other lives and in between my discernment for what I allow to affect me has improved. There is a profound freedom felt when the body and the mind release any learned or perceived limitations. The lessons I needed to learn, why I needed to learn them. and the reason behind certain personal relationships allows me to look back at ALL of it with love and gratitude. I can see beauty in the kaleidoscope of my life. Once upon a time, in a country far far away...
...I was born somewhere in South Korea and abandoned as an infant at an orphanage. So, no record of any relatives. (To the worker who named me Kim, Boo Won for my first 8 months of life, what were you thinking? Boo for a first name?!). Not knowing anything about my origins I used to joke that I was hatched and then shipped to the US in a box of sneakers. It wasn’t too far from the truth and adding humor for myself was a coping mechanism I used often. I was adopted by an American family in New York who did the best they could. It was a home environment where I felt an obligation and pressure to perform, and love was earned by being and doing what was desired. I never felt truly at home and safe and mostly felt fear and shame. My love language was chores and my outlet was sports. I discovered the area of work I wanted to go into from studying foreign language in high school. Law Enforcement was the field I was drawn to and felt service and safety was my calling. I ultimately wanted to protect children.
It was decided I move to Florida for college which wasn’t my first choice, but it was a necessary one and I do love Florida weather. College did not work out as hoped and trying to work to pay for school and rent was going nowhere slowly. I saw the military as a way to do something purposeful and enlisted in the United States Army. The Education benefits were a big draw to go with life and work experience.
The quick military intro is I was a Soldier by profession, Military Police and EOD by trade, and a Noncommissioned Officer by privilege. I was fortunate to experience the Army from the position of lowest ranking Private to being part of the command team and senior enlisted advisor. I experienced the military in peace time and war, and it brought me to places and tested my will in ways I never imagined. I was a Military Police officer for the first three years and reclassified to Explosive Ordnance Disposal (EOD). I loved my time as an MP, but the military had many opportunities I wanted to take advantage of. Turns out being able to blow things up as well as render it safe was something I enjoyed.
Within all the wild experiences there were people who became closer than family. The more you suffered and survived together the more fun and closer the bonds would become. The Army was my home, and I was all in for life! The day I was promoted to Sergeant my rank was pounded into my collarbones, and I told myself that day, my Soldiers will always come first. They inspired me every day and many left me in awe at the level of devotion and sacrifice they were willing to go for others, especially one another. You can't be everyone's friend or favorite and some may never know I loved them dearly especially when I demanded the most from them. Watching them achieve their goals and realize their potential was a wonderful sight to behold. I still enjoy hearing about their adventures and successes in life.
Losing Soldiers in combat was difficult to face when your job is to protect personnel and property. Losing Soldiers in peace time to accidents, suicide, and illnesses also took pieces of me. Some extraordinary individuals were lost way too soon. I was once asked what the "burden of command" meant to me. At that time, I felt the things that went right were for my commander and things that went wrong are my responsibility. I know where that conclusion was rooted and what experiences kept fostering that mindset. I let that perceived burden weigh me down and put unnecessary expectations and pressure on myself for a long time. Multiple deployments, the loss of Soldiers and unhealthy coping skills I started to come apart while I was still active duty. I drank as much as I could, when I could in order to cope. I made everyone and everything else a priority, so I never had to deal with myself. When I had time to do that, I didn't handle me all that well. I hit absolute rock bottom and had no intention to seek help. The disappointment in myself for not being able to push through or strength to handle my emotions compounded things. I didn't want to show my weaknesses or reveal just how much I wanted life to be done with me. There was someone who intervened at just the right time. A 72hr hold turned into almost two weeks in a facility, and then inpatient PTSD treatment for 45 days at a VA hospital. They gave me enough tools and lots of medication to return to duty, but I physically and emotionally was still riding the struggle bus. I never fully felt myself on the medications and the side effects were not helpful.
A mass and tumor were found in my breast and chest leading to multiple surgeries to include a double mastectomy. The body change was not easy to accept and the physical pain lasted years. Not wanting anymore surgeries I opted out of reconstruction in favor of a prosthetic bra. Now boobs are optional. One of my doctors recommended a service dog for my behavioral health issues. The masters of unconditional love, THE DOG, played a special role throughout life, but especially in grounding and helping me at my lowest, and will always be a beacon of light that have paws that smell of corn chips. There are soul connections and contracts with animals and humans!
In 2017, after nearly 24 years the Army medically retired me. My heart wanted to stay but my body and mind could barely cross the finish line. The transition to civilian life, and MY life took a great deal of time and patience with myself. I hadn’t been a civilian since 1993 and moved over 15 times never establishing roots anywhere. A whole new beginning was happening, and I didn't know where I fit in outside of military life. I made an attempt at marriage years ago and chose the worst time in my life to try. I also was not able to have children before the boobies vanished so finding a purpose and meaning to life in a world where I didn't know my place, and was trying to put myself back together was another significant emotional event.
I never lived life thinking I would be alive long and seeing a future for myself was not in my wheelhouse. Some very dark nights of the soul were endured, and UP was the only direction I had to go. I had to see a lot of darkness before I could see the light. Dolores Cannon began showing up in my social medias. It wasn’t an immediate draw there was just something very familiar about her I couldn’t put my finger on. By around 2020 a friend began introducing me to alternative ways of healing and non-medical treatments. I started practicing Reiki and was encouraged to look into QHHT®. The Level 1 course was so fascinating, and I consumed the information like a cop on donuts. After working with a few clients, I had my own QHHT® session. It was bananas!! I went to a life as an alien flying in my ship with my alien family to planets to test for survivability and ended up picking up lost aliens and bringing them to New Earth. I had three typed pages of life questions and had all of them answered. All of the areas for physical healing were addressed and other issues were even found and brought back to balance. I took a break from practicing to work on myself and just learn to enjoy retirement and relax. (it was brought up in my session to take "Tami Time") QHHT® official offers a Companion Course for practitioners and the opportunity to attend came at the perfect time. Students traded sessions and in my second QHHT® session I went to two lives. The first life I was shown I was the Apostle Paul and the second I was a gigantic shark; I had additional questions answered and follow up physical healing. To ensure I was as informed and prepared for anything I took the Level 2 course, and I feel even more excited than the first day. The dream is to see veterans and even active military personnel see this as a viable way to heal and learn. The physical and emotional toll service takes on the body and soul has had devastating effects and the old suck it up and drive on remedy isn't always appropriate.
I can sum up a lot of personal lessons while I was in the Army with these four rules, 1) Be Professional 2) Don't Take it Personal 3) Don't Make it Personal 4) Don't take yourself too seriously. I found that if I was encountering difficulty, it kept me on the right path. It applied in general as saying be a good person, don't create karma making things personal, and laugh and chill the hell out because nothing is really that serious.
The experience of QHHT® is a beautiful gift for us to utilize. Being able to practice it is a bonus addition to my life and I want to continue to introduce QHHT® to others and connect you to your greatest highest good. Whether you choose me or find a practitioner in your area it is the most loving gentle, and most effective way to heal. It’s like getting the Cliffs Notes to your life. You will be shown, hear, and receive all that you need and are open to accept. You will never be shown anything you cannot handle.
If you made it to here thank you for your attention and I wish you much love and laughter. ❤️🙏🏼🦋
